MetalHeaven

I hadn't thought about you in so long, I almost forgot your face If you hadn't been walking that day, You might've vanished without a trace From my mind at least, That little space that you took over Reserved for all eternity, Still yours I'm sad to discover, Why your hair always has that smell, Like new spring in bloom Why your fingers so coldly clutch, Dragging me into your tomb So once again we play this game, I'm ready to fall in hate The warning voice inside my head, But you know it's already too late, What a surprise I've let you down, Maybe you shouldn't expect so much If perfection were so easily obtained, You wouldn't have l

So here I stand on the brink...looking down this deep black chasm is not so daunting as it once seemed. Though it is a pit filled with nothing but the evil of all the world It is as familiar to me as the womb and for whatever reason I take comfort in it. As I once took comfort in you, so long ago. Watching them kill you after failing to turn you to shadow was just another chain of events, albeit a painful one for me to have experienced. So be it. If I am to be alone after all, perhaps it is or the best. I never could control this power inside me. At least now I can't hurt you anymore my love, nor you me. How simple life seemed when were toge

I don't remember the last time I slept, or the last time I felt at ease even. It's like my life has become one tense moment after another. What has my mind so worked up? Or rather...what this time? There's so much floating around at once it's pretty hard to make any of it make sense. One thing is clear to me now though, I hate loving you. I may have said it before, but I never believed it. I hate it though. What it does to me, who it makes me want to be. I've been so shut off from the world lately that all I can ever think about is you. Do I miss you? How could I not? How could I ever forget the gaping hole in me that used to be full of you?

You say that so coyly...as if you don't know it's you that I'm thinking about and how badly I need to kiss your precious lips. It's certianly more than just you though I guess. I'm mostly thinking about how you make me feel...about how good it feels to even stand next to you or be in the same room. When our eyes meet I struggle with the super nova of emotions your presence engenders. I've always felt this way, always wanted to love and protect you but it wasn't allowed. Is it now? This love is different yet the same...do you remember how I held you those many times? How I needed to make you feel safe? I haven't felt safe in such a long time.

They're gone at last. How did they find me so quickly? I must be more careful in the future. I cannot afford to lose it all now. I am so close to escape. Oh sweet escape, is there really such a thing for me? More unanswerable questions. The day, the sun so high and mighty. The air charged with the very fabric of life. So much beauty, your smiling face. That's what I hold in my heart, that's what will see me to the end. It was all so grand and magical. Right up until the sky turned black. When you deal with the devil you always pay in full. You used to say that all the time, how cruelly ironic those words became in my ears. The shock and frig

Two Parts Tragedy, One Part Hopeless Devotion, Mix and Serve... You say I'm not the only one, Of this I can be sure, I'm sick to death of how I feel, Your affliction has no cure, You tell me that you understand, That you know I'll go away, By this admission I know you lie, I have no choice but to stay, This dirty love so tired and beaten, Push me aside some more, How do I keep on fooling myself, You make my life a chore, What's left to forgive is left in the moment, You taught me that, Without you here it's so confusing, I feel nothing but the lack, All too soon I'll be forgotten, Another chapter in your book, You took from me all t

My teeth are numb...that's how it always starts. It doesn't take long before my hands start to shake and I want to be everyones best friend. How could it make sense to someone who's never been there? I probably sound like a madman....maybe it's for the best. This power is not for the feint of heart. It's probably not for me either, but I weild it with such vigor and impunity. Was this what it was like before our lives were regulated by money and society? Such thoughts are dangerous...leading down dark roads to the figures in shadow. The figures in shadow...how long has it been since my first encounter? It seems like a lifetime ago. Appropria

What is so broken that I do not see to fix it, Too cold to be warmed by your fire, Just in case I forget again what did I do wrong, Could I not fulfill your hearts desire, Was it really so easy for you to just walk away, Do you care so little about how I feel, I'm trying to keep it all together but I grow weak, It's getting harder to tell what's still real, Your lies untied inside my mind, The road so cold to truth untold, Cannot return to learn what you yearn, Everyone still screaming from dreaming without meaning. What I've become in your absence should scare you, This fire that burns will consume us all, A bitter storm rages in

This Could Mean Anything...by Ronnie Pendleton Could it be the end has come, For once I see so clear, A treat for many a curse for some, We all look in the mirror, To see oneself through gods own eyes, A double bladed knife, Through all the truth we seek the lies, So quick to take a life, Don't despair the time has come, Of this you can be sure, My perfect vision flawed to some, Nothing could be so pure, The light of truth shines on inside, No trouble for the dead, Weaving masks with which to hide, Deceptions clever thread, To free oneself from what's to come, A sacrifice must be made, The price in blood too much for some, Though al

The clock ticks on despite my best efforts, The seconds turning to minutes when I can't see your face, The minutes pile up to hours weighing me down, But then I see you again and it all falls back into place, Signs point to futures failing but I cannot look away, A tired shell of fragile memories tangled up inside, Forgotten things remembered but my love still runs hot, The pain makes me repepntant for all those times I lied, How human is it to feel this empty without you? I couldn't walk away after all I've been through, Nothing here is certain except for how we feel, The lack of which reminds me none of this is real, A fantasy o